What would you do when your heart was shattered?

This article contains spoiler for the Netflix's 'Someone Great'. But whatever, duh, just read it.

So, it was started when I over binge-watched TikTok as one of the unknown users suggested me to watch Someone Great from Netflix.

Well, anyway, Someone Great, starring Gina Rodriguez as Jenny Young, former star of Jane the Virgin,  is just amazing. It was released in April 2019, but I never have the urge to watch it since I won't relate to a breakup movie, but now hell yeah this movie is exactly what I need now.

Briefly in this movie, Jenny is breaking up with Nate who has been in a relationship for 9 years, damn. Jenny got accepted on her dream job as a music journalist with Rolling Stone, means she has to move to San Fransisco, which also means, from all that we know, she has to do a long distance relationship. However,  Nate simply refused it. Basically, Nate is just being reasonable that long distance will never work out anyway, says me.

But all it takes is one particular emotional scene that would be a reprimand of a lifetime. Jenny is sitting on the train with her gorgeous dress but also after sipping a bunch of tequilas and molly, she writes a letter. A cheesy yet just perfect letter. As a person who has been going through so many stages of heartbreak and wipe their own tears, I have this audacity to elaborate it. Just to translate of how I've been feeling for the past 9 months and of how I always close my eyes and blame the universe for not giving me precisely what I wanted, could be captured into these incredible words once at a time.

Everyone, scooch over and take a note. Here's what Jenny writes:

"Do you think I can have one more kiss?"

I'll find closure on your lips and then I'll go.

Maybe, also, one more breakfast, one more lunch, and one more dinner.

I'll be full and happy and we can part.

But, in between meals, maybe we can lie in bed one more time?

One more prolonged moment where time suspends indefinitely as I rest my head on your chest.

My hope is if we add up the one more's, they will equal a lifetime.

And I'll never have to get to the part where I let you go.

But that's not real, is it?

There are no more 'one mores'

I met you when everything was new and exciting, and the possibilities of the world seemed endless

And they still are.

For you

For me

But not for us.

Somewhere between then and now, here and there

I guess we didn't just grow apart..

We grew UP.

When something breaks, if the pieces are large enough, you can fix it.

Unfortunately, sometimes things don't break,

They shatter.

But when you let the light in, shattered glass will glitter.

And in those moments, when the pieces of what we were catch the sun, I'll remember just how beautiful it was.

Just how beautiful it will always be.

Because it was us.

And we were magic.

Forever."

Jeez.. it gives me chills.

Here's what I think. At the beginning of breakup, it was all a denial, right? Breaking up could be madly sad, fucked up, and devastating. We all shut our eyes tight and resist everything that is actually happening, shit comes right away and we just don't want to acknowledge it.. yet. Obviously, we tend to come back to them, only to get a closure, or maybe only to win them back because the fact that we lost something that we've been holding on for so long.

There's always a time where we're constantly going back and forth to find comfort in this inconvenient time. And that is okay. If we scroll down to Jenny's letter, it is all true that we sometimes (always) demand the 'one mores' even if it takes disappointment to be turned down.. again.  

It seems like it is the only way, to want one more kiss, cuddle, hug, a long night ride around the city, admire one another from the other side of car seat, rocking out to favorite songs, -well it could be long so I'm going to stop- in order to make us feel that we can move on, right?

Coming from Jenny's fracted-into-pieces heart and pessimistic torn-life, she, in a thousand possible ways, soothes us all that even a shattered heart can bring light. At first when I read it, I clearly have no idea what this means at all, how can painful circumstances bring happiness? 

But then I get it, Jenny was truly in love with Nate, when something beautiful breaks, you just have to let the light in to see that your heart fraction was still beautiful (but why?) Because the time that you spent with them, you were happy. It left you precious adventure of love life and you should not regret it, instead cherish it. Just like Jenny said to their friends at the fountain: "I'm sad. I'm just so sad. But it's like a good sad, you know? We loved each other. We LOVE each other. I mean that shit doesn't go away, right?" 

The light. It could be anything. It could be your dream, your inner-desires that you never get to accomplish when you were with them, re-bound with your long lost friends, etc. The most important thing is that you get to let those fractions go, so you will see the spark of glimmered light. It's beautiful and will always be. When you let something go, you'll never know what comes back, right?

Surprisingly, unlike the other drama movies where the ending is always about getting a new hottie and their life becomes well. Yet, Someone Great actually tries to remind us that we have something great- it's not in somebody else's, it's within ourselves. Heartbreak has always been painful, people change, circumstances change, visions change, principles change. But that's the point right? We are faced to make a decision which might lead us into unexpected journeys.  

Accept yourself. Forgive yourself because you matter. 

You are someone great.